Thank you for visiting my blog and for being a continual supporter, it means the world to me. If you’re new here, thank you for being here with us.
You may or may not have noticed my posts have been less regular and even non-existent in the last 6 months or so…here’s why:
If you know me personally or follow me, perhaps you’ve gathered a few conclusions about me. I’m a giant goof ball and love to have fun — like, don’t turn on The Greatest Showman soundtrack on around me unless you want to be automatically entered into a full on (and embarrassing) dance off. In all seriousness, while I do spend most of my days being completely ridiculous and silly with my daughter, I am also very interested in digging deeper with matters of the heart.
I started this blog several years ago, in the trenches (biggest blessing of my life – I was just so sleepy, lol!) of being a new mama and in hopes to find balance between motherhood and my individuality. I needed a creative outlet, but I also needed to focus on staying healthy. My health journey has been ever evolving over the last 10 years or so, but motherhood really kicked it up a notch for me. As a mama, I don’t have the capacity to be anything but my best self. My daughter deserves me at my best and I am a better mom when I am practicing self care and self love. This blog was created to be a place to share that journey and join the conversation with so many of you who are on similar journeys.
Writing has always been a form of therapy for me. I am a visual learner and writing things down helps my brain see things more clearly. My writing style is very much a mirror of whatever is on my heart at the time. This is what has made blogging even more difficult for me in the last couple years as my heart (and life) has very much been in turmoil. Admitting that right now is pretty hard and humbling.
This blog has always been meant to be a positive place and so much of what I have felt inclined to write about are rather difficult and dark at times. I am a perpetual silver lining seeker and even my posts about hard things have some form of gratitude or hope attached to it. Yet I couldn’t help but think, “who in the world would want to read this? It’s so depressing.” Social media can be so curated and beautiful but real life can be pretty dang messy. I am also mindful that my problems, while monumental to me, are:
- Not bigger than my God.
- I am sure there are many, many people out there who would trade places with me because their situation is so awful. It could always be worse.
- Every difficult situation is an opportunity for growth.
- God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good. (repeat as needed)
But those things don’t shrink my problems, they just help me stay rational and grateful despite circumstance. Our family has seemingly been hit from all sides in the last few years with trauma, addictions coming to light, cancer, separations, distance, job changes, deep waters of unknown, and occasional financial worry. I know I am not alone in these struggles, either. So many of you are walking through similar life experiences, and I suppose that comes with the territory of living in a broken world. But I sure as hell am not going to just accept these things as is. I am going to hold my head high, demand better, and work harder…all the while praying for the strength to do it.
But I am here to say that I have done a lot of heart (hard) work in the last few months and I am feeling better. Rather than wallowing, feeling resentful or bitter, I want to stay positive and share our story anyway — the good and the not so good. The beautiful and the messy. When pain & healing is shared it then has purpose and the healing can spread like wildfire. If you are walking through hard things or if you are hurting today, I invite you to pray with me. Light drives out darkness, so in hard times choose joy. Choose to be grateful for whatever good you see in life, no matter how small it seems. Override negative feelings with intentional positive choices. It’s hard but it’s worth it! I also invite you to talk to someone. You are loved and you matter.
What to expect in the future here:
I plan to share more about emotional healing, yes, but I want to also go back to sharing recipes and practical ways for everyone to work toward a healthier life! I am down 11lbs and still losing, all with simple healthier habits. I’ll be sharing more about this soon! If you have any questions or topic requests, let me know!